I'm in a happy relationship. In love, about to get married. Everything seem to be in place. My boyfriend is a great guy, caring, gentle, truthful and responsable. I know he's the best choice and the best thing that happened to me, I really shouldnt be ungraceful. But what if you meet someone that gives you the chills at this point? Oh my dear God... it's just so crazy of me that I even think of this. I know 'R' will take care of me always... he won't ever leave me or stop thinking of me as the most important thing in his life, I just know ... and I love him even more because of that. I fall asleep in his arms and I feel so safe and secure. Than I wake up, prepare myself to work, go in to the pub and I see 'G' ... It so hard to explain what I feel to that guy. I know we dont belong to one another, we wouldnt get along in a long run. I don't want to make a step towards him, I can't emagine myself with him or anything else but this strangre atraction makes me vulnerable. It's somethink with which I can't even fight, and what's worst I dont want to because I like it. It's like it is completely enough for me that he's around, the idea that he's somwhere, that i can see him, smile to him and see him smiling back....
I feel totally lost... maybe it would be much easier if i would just get used to that feeling and stop thinking about it. Just get it over with...
